She’s There Uptown

I still see her in midst of my gin

When I’m alone, I go to her to lean

She’s there uptown on the sixth floor

And I’m here lurking near dirty door

I un-see when I see her on my lane

And I crave her when I see her on my chain

I wish I can have her right here

On this stranger’s couch hoping she won’t fear

Though I have a shield called ego

That forces me to let her go

I can’t feel her when I write her songs

But I can’t help but miss her in these party lawns

She’s my home, she’s my escape

Though she an angel, but also a devil with the cape

I live inside the four walls and two arms

But she’s the girl from headlights and has striking charms

I hope she sees me crawling drunk on my dude’s floor

I might be something else but I’m right there begging at her door

I ignored her; I ignored my feels for her

I ignored when she was with me, unfortunately it was my err

But now what I feel is new

Now I cry on that pillowcase, only if she knew

Now all I do is keep drinking that vodka at places

And tell about her to unfamiliar faces

Now I’m confessing my love for her on every talk

To my friends, my hoes and unknown folk

But she’s there uptown on the sixth floor

And I’m here lurking near this dirty door

23:11

19 Feb. 17

©SmitFairytale